Archive for December, 2023

Librera me, Domine.

December 29, 2023

Certain minor miracles – of timeliness, rarity, price – occurred among the bookshops of southern Italy this year. In Rome, I found an Alexandra David-Néel from the private collection of Freya Stark I gifted to Eva; at Dante & Descartes in Naples, a complete reproduction, plates and all, of William Hamilton’s Campi Phlegraei. Observations on the Volcanos of the Two Sicilies as They Have Been Communicated to the Royal Society of London, a book that sells for $100,000+ (USD), for €65 that she gifted me. A crumbling edition of Amadeo Maiuri’s far less costly, but no less crucial, I Campi Flegrèi: Dal Sepolcro di Virgilio all’Antro di Cuma also, improbably, appeared on a rack at Port’Alba. 

I will finish about seventy-five books this year – mostly titles like The Ethics of Earth ArtSibyls and Sibylline Prophecy in Classical Antiquity, and The Path of Shadows: Chthonic Gods, Oneiromancy & Necromancy in Ancient Greece. Although I quite liked Cormac McCarthy’s career coda Stella Maris, Mathias Énard’s Tell Them of Battles, Kings, and Elephants, etc., none of the new (to me) fictions I read gave me as much pleasure, I think, as Patrick Leigh Fermor’s The Violins of Saint-Jacques (although the first and last lines of Norman Maclean’s A River Runs Through It are tough to beat). And none affected me so strongly – for whatever lame psycho-meteorological elucidation of my inner weather I might proffer – as Zorba the Greek did. 

As I wrote a friend:

This morning, I ran from the center of Naples through the kilometer-long hole in the Posillipo peninsula into Fuorigrotta, and thence across the supervolcano to Lake Avernus: just over 20 km under a blazing late-morning sun, listening to Zorba the Greek, occasionally laughing aloud as I padded along the colossal industrial ruins from Bagnoli Futura to the western limits of Pozzuoli. The sky and sea were blue; the tuff of La Starza, yellow. The face of that tremorous escarpment is festooned with ancient Roman ruins like some coast cliffs are with fossils. I was happy.

That’s weather, not climate, as I said. Days later, I wrote again: 

Was feeling especially human last night. Hard to say why. The weather, maybe. Or dead ends in my work. Had had a few too many beers, and there was an intense conversation in Piazza Dante about the war in Ukraine with a guy I know who works the crowd there, an anarcho-communist, that felt almost life or death, and finally erupted into us singing a Bourbon-era Nnapulitano brigand song together, him pointing to the hairs standing erect on his arms. I was fatigued, overheated, not especially clear-minded. At the flat, I actually asked myself, “Is that it?”, and answered by striding back off into the night furnace, bent on reaching the highest point above the city and the sea I could find stairs to. Made it about five miles before I exhausted them (not they me). The last chapters of Zorba the Greek in my earbuds did a number on me up there in the dark: more than once, I actually bayed like a dog or wolf as I climbed. Not out of pain, or even unhappiness. Rather – good as it is to live, even just to be alive – it’s often a hell of a thing when I allow myself to _really_ feel like a body – this aging, broken-down body – in the midst of life. Needless to say, no one paid me any mind. Nor should you.

Bob.

December 16, 2023

In April of 1996, shortly after being talked onto a raft afloat on a small artificial lake at Stanford University by a guy with a gun who was very, very angry with me (justifiably, I confess), I escaped to San Francisco with my friend, the painter Eric Sweet. We were in SFMOMA, gawping at Duchamp’s Boîte-en-valise, when Eric looked up, shouted BOB!!!, and sprinted off, knocking past a handsome woman with a distinctive white streak in her dark mane. Susan Sontag glared after him until he prostrated himself before one of Robert Motherwell’s elegies to the Spanish Republic, then pulled a shrugging face – as if to say, well, OK, I see what he means – that I will love her for forever.

Only gratitude will be gushing from it.

December 13, 2023

My kid sister and me, in our father’s clothes. Nicole Krauss made this back in the Pleistocene of our friendship. The Brodsky quote – despite a year too often darkened by the sadness, madness, sickness, and/or death of those I love – still holds.*

*Indeed, having recently had dirt crammed down my throat, I can attest: even after.